SO HERE'S THE DEAL:
I've become increasingly paranoid of people from my school, my dorm, my family, basically my life, finding this. Unfortunately I tend to use this username for a lot of things, so it's really not hard to internet-stalk me.
SO. If you have ever read this, if you're bored, if you just feel like seeing what I've said, WHATEVER. Go ahead and friend me, just do it.
And if you feel like it or whatever, let me know here so that I can friend you back. I love new friends, I honestly don't even care if you'll ever comment on my entries or anything. SERIOUSLY, I DON'T CARE WHO READS/HAS ACCESS TO THIS AS LONG AS I'VE NEVER MET YOU IRL.
Basically I feel bad making this f-locked, but you gotta do what you gotta do. And in order to keep talking about my life honestly, I need to make sure people who might get hurt by things I say can't find it.
THAT IS ALL.

-D

So I knew this Monday or yesterday, actually, but it's only really hitting me now. I'm so happy I could cry. I feel so freaking blessed; I don't deserve what I've gotten and I'm going to have to work hard to even try to deserve it.

I need to do well this semester. Not only because I need to prove SO MUCH to myself, to my parents, to everyone I know, but mostly to myself.
But also because of what is riding on me getting good grades:

1. A trip to visit my older brother who's been in Thailand since last May teaching English. I'd go right after finals are over, around May 12th. By then he'll be done with school and traveling, possibly to Laos or Cambodia. He wants me to visit him and I KNOW he'll force me to have an amazing, amazing time.
There's a condition on this one though - I have to find out when he's coming home, so that I can be on the same flight back. And if he's coming home in the middle of May rather than the end, idk if this trip is going to happen (the flights are crazy expensive and if I'm only going to be there for like two days it's really not worth spending aaaall that money).

2. A nine-day trip to Paris in July/August. My mom's part of the employee-section of the St. Vincent DePaul Society at my university, and she got an opportunity to take this trip and bring an adult friend/family member. She asked permission and she's allowed to bring me. So the people will all be older and employees, but honestly, it's Paris. So wtfever. There'll some free time built into the iterairy, but most of the trip is tours and whatnot of Vincentian sites. Which honestly I find pretty interesting. I'm installing French into my torrented Rosetta Stone now and I'm going to try to find some books or something to study up on Vincent and the Vincentian tradition.

I'M GOING TO BE THINNER AND HEALTHY AND WEARING CUTE DRESSES AND I'LL BORROW MY DAD'S NICE CAMERA AND TAKE BEAUTIFUL PICTURES AND HAVE EXPERIENCES I'VE NEVER HAD AND BE CULTURES AND SOCIAL AND WONDERFUL AND I'M SO EXCITED.
aka I'm very much looking forward to this summer.

-D

SO I DECIDED I WOULD DO 25 NASDAQS COUNTING DOWN TO CHRISTMAS. BUT I'M ALREADY LOSING TRACK SO I FIGURED, HEY, I'LL KEEP THEM ALL IN ONE PLACE!

( DAY ONE )

( DAY TWO )

( DAY THREE )

( DAY FOUR )

( DAY FIVE )

( DAY SIX )

( DAY SEVEN )

( DAY EIGHT )

( DAY NINE )

( DAY TEN )

( DAY ELEVEN )

( DAY TWELVE )

( DAY THIRTEEN )

( DAY FOURTEEN )

( DAY FIFTEEN )

( DAY SIXTEEN )

( DAY SEVENTEEN )

( DAY EIGHTEEN )

( DAY NINETEEN )

( DAY TWENTY )

( DAY TWENTY ONE )

( DAY TWENTY TWO )

( DAY TWENTY THREE )

( DAY TWENTY FOUR )

( DAY TWENTY FIVE )

I DID THIS BECAUSE I WAS BORED AND I LOVE THE HOLIDAY SEASON. I HOPE IT MADE A FEW PEOPLE SMILE. AND I HOPE YOUR DAY AND THE DAYS AHEAD OF FILLED WITH LOVE AND JOY AND HOPE (AND SNOW). ♥

shiiiiit.
Three years ago I was friends with a girl who became very annoying and just... not anyone I wanted so associate. But on the way to not-speaking-or-being-friends, Matt and I sort of hated her as a joke because she was so annoying. Once she told us to take pictures during another friend (who was even MORE annoying btw)'s Christmas party. We decided that that was not happening. We weren't going to go around taking pictures of people we didn't give a shit about, and we're the people at this girl's parties who just chilled on her couch and talked to each other. We instead spent the entire time filling her camera with over 100 pictures of feet, elbows, corners of frames, blurry objects, cups of eggnog, nothing, way too zoomed in things, people's backs, cars outside, each other, the couch, the food, cracks in the sidewalk, lightbulbs, etc. She took her camera back at the end of the night and I distinctly remember I got a "what... the... FUCK?!?! DEIRDRE??" It was legit one of the funniest things we ever did. We were so proud of ourselves and we still laugh when we remember it.
She sent me those pictures years ago when we were still speaking. I had them saved on my computer.
I CAN'T FIND THOSE PICTURES. I suspect they're on my external hard drive that I fried last year :| I still have it but I'm scared to try to restore it.

I was completely ready to get prints of all those pictures and put them in a photo album for him. It was going to be the best Christmas gift ever. I NEED to get this hard drive working. I wonder if my mom could salvage it the way she did the last time I fried one...

-D